Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Back Down Memory Lane

I went to Boston for a conference and it was great to be back in the city. I was finally reminded of why I fell in love with the city. The city is so beautiful. The history is in the archetecture is amazing.

So last night I had walk through the Christian Science Complex. My ex boyfriend used to work there. He may still work there but he cut off contact with me for very good reason. We had a high recidivism rate. As I walked through the complex I stopped at the reflecting pool. I reflected on how so much of Boston is enveloped in that relationship. A relationship that I don't know why I cannot get over. Just when I think I've forgotten about him something reminds of him.

As I stared into the pool I wasn't thinking about our memories. I was thinking about how much I would love to see him. But why? I guess I didn't really get the closure and I can't let it go. It's all absurd because as most of you know....I was calling to break up with him when he did it first. So what's my issue? That was three years ago why can't I just let it go?


rashad said...

I am far from a relationship guru, but I will say, that you should have called him. you could have gone out to eat in a relatively benign setting, and just talked,and you probably would have gotten something resembling closure. you actually could still do it via phone.

and the visual of you reflecting at the reflecting pool is one i would lie to see

A Beautiful Life said...

Maybe if you seen him the next time you go to Boston you will realize that you don't really miss him that much. I don't know.... It's hard.

nichole said...

when you figure out how to let go, when you find out how to stop the universe from sending little reminders about him, please tell me.

LittleTortilla stays in DC said...

Well guys....i don't even know how to contact him. I don't even know if he still lives in this country. To find him I would have pull some serious stalker moves.